Marie-Louise von Franz

On fear and desire from the book   Individuation in Fairy Tales

  ".....Sometimes, not only in those central moments, one has the feeling that the unconscious is now going to bring up something, and then one thinks inwardly, "All right, I will face everything, except I hope it is not this or that" - and then you can be pretty sure it will be just that. You have already a hunch as to what it will be and that it belongs to your personality, that thing of which you say, "I'll face anything except that"; it is just what belongs to you and your life. So very often the most important steps or episodes in one's life are surrounded by a cloud of resistance and fear. If one is quite honest with oneself, one does not even know if one desired or feared it most, for desire and fear are equal. The strange feeling of "that belongs but I won't have it" seems to belong typically to the areas of realization pushed toward one by the Self."

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